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Yesterday I went into the RE's office yet again for a Pre operative check up. After a blood draw and yet another ultrasound I was out of there in about an hour. Even though I am terrified about this surgery in the morning.. DR. H still knows how to make me feel at ease! Praise God!
I still find it hard to believe that here I am... In the month that my baby should've been born if I hadn't of miscarried, still dealing with the loss of our first pregnancy. It stll blows my mind that my body didn't pass all of the pregnancy.
I am trying so hard to give all of this pain and frustration of becoming parents to God, but it is so very hard. Ever since I had to admit my older sister into the hospital room that she ended up dying in of cancer, I have been terrified of doctors and hospitals. And now I am constantly having to visit both in order to have the one thing I have wanted most in this world, a child.
He doesn't give us more than we can handle.... Right?